A life update
Hi folks!
It’s been nearly 7 years since I last posted to Tumblr and every rarely in this time did I return to this blog. I think like many young folks who joined Tumblr, I aged out and simply moved onto adulting. Tonight, after a quick work out and dinner and kdrama catch up session, my mind returned to pitterpatterpeterrabbit. Truthfully, I had forgotten the name all together and forgotten this little public diary; but nostalgia is hard to ignore and I was just really curious.
Just to offer perspective, I’m into my mid twenties now. Reading through the entries of my teens and early twenties is a fascinating exercise. We’re often asked as an icebreaker what we might like to tell our younger selves and I realize now, I wish to tell younger me: things got better, you did good, and you did the best you could in the situations you were in.
When I was younger I frequently wanted to meet older me, to know that my life wasn’t wasted and I didn’t dissolve within my vices. While admittedly, I didn’t take the greatest care of myself, I wanted to share a few small life updates:
- I eat well now, I am gaining weight and I have mental clarity. I am learning to make peace with my body and I’m learning to be gentler to myself.
- I finished my degree, then got another one, then got a full-time job.
- I’m applying for a Masters program in Social Work, and I’m still not too sure what to do with my professional or academic life. I was waitlisted for the third time and the uncertainty is hard to hold onto.
- My mom got so much better! She’s been in recovery for nearly 6ish years. She struggles with her heart, fatigue and eating, but overall she is healthy and happy. I work from home due to the pandemic. My working room is upstairs and my mom is usually downstairs. I can hear her shifting around throughout the day. Her shuffling feet sound like safety and I sneak plenty of hugs in through the day.
It is so unlikely that anyone may come by this post, let alone read it. I think there’s a sense of comfort in that. I guess I am mostly writing this so that 7 years down the road, I can come back and read this again… But I am so glad to have found this tonight, I think I might try to come visit more often now.
<3
me and the girls out on the town
I’m the girl on the right sitting down because my feet hurt and my shoes are uncomfortable
- frand: I should drop out, if they would give me my money back and not give me my degree, I would drop out
- me: yah, like they're the one's that failed us
"You have to meet people where they are, and sometimes you have to leave them there."
(via weltenwellen)